Today being Father’s Day I have been contemplating my relationship with my father. He passed over in 2005 seven months right after my mother. I am always talking about my mother, Mollie, as I had a deep personal relationship with her. My father, Art, was deep and very hard to get to the core of his essence so having a daughter who was very sensitive did not make for a great combination at times. I wanted to take this day to really honor my father as he helped me in so many ways.
I was the fourth daughter to my parents and when I came along I know my father was disappointed that I was not the son he wished he would have. He was a very strong man and showed me that intensity within him most of the time. Until I took stock of myself and decided to do the traditional Inner Child Healing pathway, I was unable to truly love my father as a daughter should be able to do so. Many of you already know of this time in my life that I needed to heal and today’s writing is not about that issue. What I want to share is that healing is possible for anyone who chooses to look at themselves and why the relationships are not flowing. What I learned through this process and afterwards, is that I had the ability to change my relationship with my father. It was a beautiful moment in time for me.
I am not saying it was a bad thing but it was not the type of father-daughter exchange I desired. I had great fear of him. He was intense, but with that intensity there was great love. As a teenager, all I could see was the fear of not being able to speak up to him. I realized later that we had some past life experiences in which they were not healthy relationships and I had projected this fear into my present experiences. The awakening that happened to me with the Inner Child Healing is beyond words. I realized that in order to receive love from him, I needed to give it as I was always shying away from it. It is amazing what can happen when we fully look deeply within ourselves to do the healing that is necessary.
We had some wonderful moments and one such time I want to share as it rings deep in my heart on this day. We lived on a lake in Southern New Jersey and in the winter months we ice skated. The length of the lake was about a mile and all the neighbors had spotlights on their lawns to shine down on the ice. It was a magical environment to grow up in as a child. My father skated very well and we were all taught at a young age to be very respectful of the water and the ice. I was probably about 10 years of age and my dad took my hands in a criss-cross style across your bodies, and we ice skated down the lake together. It was a beautiful moment and this was a father-daughter exchange that I will always remember.
My father has always been a support person for me in all areas of my life. The part I wished for come true in the later years of my parent’s life when I had fully healed any hurts that had happened earlier because I felt he was gruff and not very understanding. He was very protective and there were other issues that I have healed which I shall not share at this time. They are gone and I am grateful for the healing that he and I have been able to accomplish since his passing in 2005.
I was honored to be with my father for five days before his passing. The love that my mother had for him came right through his Being. He had lung cancer and was able to stay in his room during his transition at the Masonic Home. My sister and I witnessed some amazing moments which is also in my book about my parents to be finished very soon. It was in those moments that I saw the deepness of my father’s love within his Being.
On this day of June 19, 2011 I thank my father for the man he was and the healing that has occurred between us as he is a very important support figure in my life still to this day.
Ode to Dad 2011
Even though you are no longer in physical body,
I would like to take this moment to honor you,
You helped me to mold my life in this present moment.
You taught me to be honest, to love deeply, to share with others,
To stand up for myself and my convictions,
You shared with me your sense of business and how to interact with others in my career every day.
For years it was in the corporate world,
You taught me how to stand up for myself,
And share who I am;
Now as I am no longer in the business world of the same context,
But in a holistic pathway of helping others,
All of those same qualities are part of my demeanor.
You honored me by accepting my pathway of healing,
You took what I share with you on the ascension process;
And have accelerated your own spiritual essence;
All that you learned here on Earth has molded you into the beautiful Soul you are now embodying.
You walk with me every day,
You share your love, your essence and your crazy sense of humor;
I am honored to see the pathway that you are now walking,
We have healed together all the hurts that happened between us,
And this is what I most grateful for.
We now walk hand-in-hand as Comrades of the Light,
You in the Heavens, Me Upon the Earth,
It does not matter where we reside;
As our Hearts will always be intertwined,
I still look to you for advice, help and support
As you walk amongst the many Masters I love so dearly.
I feel your Essence in every moment;
The qualities that you embodied upon Earth are only a small reflection;
Of the LIGHT that YOU Are.
It was an honor to have you as my father at this time on Earth.
Happy Father’s Day to YOU, Dearest Dad.
HAPPY FATHER’S DAY to all of the fathers in the world, in body and out of body.
In Expressions of Oneness,
Rev. Christine Meleriessee Helioihah
Vibratory Master of Ascension