This was written on Monday evening, November 8th, 2010, after facilitating the Clarion Light Beings 911 & Beyond. It is my personal journey of how I feel I have fully peeled the onion and found my Divine Essence within my Heart. I want to share this so others can do the same. It has been a very long journey for me and I share it with my I AM Presence fully and without reservation. Thank you for your loving support in so many ways.
Until one arrives into Oneness they cannot fully understand what this means. We talk about it constantly, Creation of Oneness, and the love, joy, acceptance, and purity of life. I have spoken about it for eons of time and felt it most of the moments I have been living. It was not until tonight that I can say I express it fully within myself on a physical existence.
As many of you know and understand, I am a Cosmic Messenger of Light. I have walking this path for almost 30 years preparing myself for what I was not even sure of until this moment in time. I have prepared myself on a journey of complete trust and acceptance in the Universe while being guided every step of the way. I was put in situations and places that I would not normally choose to experience but yet always found myself working through the life circumstances.
My channeling is what has given me hope, friendship and acceptance in my life. Many may not understand the gift of connecting to the other realms of thoughts and energies to be a gift of friendship. In my case it truly has been and continues to be. I traveled the path of discovering the New Age books many years ago and was taught by Light Teachers by each book that I picked up and read. The teacher would come through me and guide me through the process. I was gifted with a Being called a Gate Keeper and he protected me from other lower energies from entering my space when I would communicate with Spirit. It was a family affair for awhile but that wore off.
I jumped into a marriage with a man that was my spiritual partner and Twin Flame. We were so much alike that it broke up the marriage. I delved into self help with Inner Child Recovery work in the 80’s and each step was deeper upon this journey I call, Oneness. I started channeling the angels and facilitating groups for others, private sessions, and all the while in a learning curve. I moved into Native American traditions and attended many sweat lodges to help heal my innermost pain and debris. I traveled to Sedona for ten days alone which was a big turning point in my life.
I then delved into ascension books by Dr. Joshua David Stone which I was completely enthralled with the material although at first I did not understand much of it. I kept at it and started a weekly ascension group in which I channeled a Master from the book for people in the group. I eventually met Dr. Stone in Mount Shasta during his Wesak Festival and was invited to his private seminar for global leaders that he felt would be very important for leadership on this planet. The intensity of Light coming into me continued and the struggles continued as each year I released more karma, met more people, lost more friends, moved into places that I would not have chosen if I had the choice, and transcended so many issues within myself. This was all in a span of 20 years.
I started channeling Mother and Father God six years ago and was fully integrated two years later. The energies were intense and my body had to change. My food changed, sleep patterns, awake patterns, and just my general composition. Since that time I spend many hours on the computer working and sharing the messages which can make me feel very ungrounded at various times during the day. Last year I was gifted to leave my corporate job and have been teaching and sharing with others via the internet and telephone. I still have been very unsure what my pathway is about. I had a car accident over two years ago in which in reality I should not have lived. I was hit four times and the Angel of Death came to visit me two weeks before the event. I walked away with 2 cracked ribs, bruises, and very sore. Authorities were quite shocked in my ability to walk away almost unscathed. I attribute this all to my friends in the Spiritual Hierarchy. They made sure I was safe as I had done the work the Angel of Death requested of me to do.
I have had a death wish on myself for many years. This work has not been easy. Friends come and go and honestly, being in a Cosmic level of consciousness is not easy. I am in a space presently wherein other energies can affect me greatly. I am noticing this more often than not.
I conduct weekly calls to assist individuals with the energies and bring forth information. I have a weekly Master Class in which we honor a Light Being with his/her teachings which allows individuals to feel the energies for themselves. I also have taught the Rays of God, a Mediumship and Channeling Course, along with a course on accessing the Gods and Goddesses Within. Sometimes the attendance is low, and I am unsure as to what my next pathway is going to be. Unemployment will be leaving me very soon, and I need to be the true alchemist to fully create the life I desire for this work.
On Sunday, November 7th, 2010 I facilitated one of my Cosmic Oneness calls in which I channel the Cosmic I AM Presence known as Mother and Father God. On this day the energy was quite different. It was almost like the beginning when I started to communicate with them but much stronger. My hands did not stop moving as my palms were rubbing back and forth. The vibration running through me was unbelievably beyond my comprehension. The individuals on the call also noticed that the attunement was very intense.
Today, being November 8th, I awoke to great emotional pain. I was going through some other emotional issues so I did not attribute what I was feeling to the attunement from the evening before. I did a meditation in which I traveled to my Soul Temple, and Lady Isis took me to a beautiful waterfall in which I was cleansed and purified very deeply. I was very moved by this experience and felt much better after it was over. I was very busy during the day sending out my posts of my classes and editing some of my work. I was in the zone.
When it was time for me to finish late in the afternoon, I wanted to work out but felt I was unable to do so. I decided to take a hot bath and it was in the bath I realized something else was occurring. I could not stop crying and had those death wishes enfold around me. I wanted to be off the planet, take me away, etc. So I started asking for help from Master Babaji and Saint Germain. I felt like I was a child kicking my legs in the water but I could not stop. The pain was so deep in my heart. Now I have gone through several hundreds of death and rebirth experiences but this felt different. It felt like my heart was raw and so very sore like an open wound. Master Babaji explained to me that I was feeling the Oneness within my physical being. The onion had finally been peeled down to the core and I could feel my Heart Essence like never before. This is a status of existence I have been trying to achieve for almost 30 years.
When I thought about this, it made sense as I felt nothing but sore. I had no thoughts of anything that I knew before. My emotions were not of something that I was grieving but I was sore like I had just been put out in the sun and was burning. My old thoughts of myself that were not of the highest aspect were also gone. I have always thought badly about my body and they were not there. I was refreshed but not quite reborn. Like I had walked out into an area that I did not know a soul or where I was. I was not lost but no one knew me either.
As I got out of the tub, I realized exactly what was happening but could not stop sobbing. It was so intense. I felt my mentor, Dr. Joshua David Stone (who is in an ascended master now) come to me and put his hands on my Solar Plexus in the front and back. He said to me “it is done.” I was unsure what this meant but knew that I had been reborn in this state of a vehicle called Christine.
I was facilitating my call with the Clarion Light Beings of 911 & Beyond and had to pull myself together. I was worn out from all of the emotional charge running through me. This group has to do with the souls of 911 that perished and a temple was created in the Multi-Universal level overlighted by Archangel Michael. The energies that came through on this night were the start of an amazing journey for me. It was the Creative Source of Oneness which is a group consciousness and does not represent any specific entity. It is everything we are all a part of and continue to be. In order to understand, one must listen to the recording as there was great explanation of the Oneness that we are all a part of. In order to feel this Oneness in the physical we must be vulnerable, sensitive, and have purity within our Hearts. I totally understood everything because this is what I experienced on this day. I have always been a Sensitive in everything I do and others in my family would give me a hard time about it. I also have the ability to communicate with many levels of dimensions and beings including some humans. I saw the Oneness that we were all a part of and it was shown to each of us how important it is to embrace the Oneness within and then we will be able to experience it fully with others.
There is nothing like it at all. We can talk about it, feel love, but IT IS JUST WHAT IT IS. It is unexplainable and our minds will try to tear it apart. This is what we are all striving for and must strive for in the fifth dimensional frequency. Until we fully clear the lower bodies, it cannot be attained. I know on this day that I have attained this state of Oneness.
I am feeling thoughts of people that sometimes do not give me what I feel I deserve, there is no hurt anymore or judgment. I feel whole and within that wholeness I love everything. I expand this love and want to communicate it to others. This is what we are all striving for and I have had the utmost gift to receive it totally. I am in awe of this moment and know why I was crying and sobbing. There is nothing else like it in the entire Universe. I feel I am fully empowered and can speak my truth like I never have before in compassion and love. It is an amazing feeling.
When I awoke this morning, my mother came to me (she is in Spirit) and said something very important is going to happen to you today. Little did I know that I would receive the greatest gift in all of Creation. I want to share it with others because now I can love without worrying that another person is not loving me back. I can be to all whom I always wanted to be but was unable to share it. I look forward to the people of my soul group coming into my life. I am now ready to receive them in all different forms. I am safe and secure within my world and allow myself to be totally vulnerable in each moment.
I AM THAT I AM
Rev. Christine Meleriessee Heliohah
Ascension Coach & Teacher ~ Cosmic Messenger of Light